Vday

If I was my Valentine I would make me coffee before the kiddo woke up and take the kiddo so I could enjoy my coffee without worrying.  But I'm not my Valentine. My valentine is asleep like he is every morning.  Oh well. At least I will probably get flowers later. Because of all the snow I wasn't able to do my Valentines time line but I gave him a note that I wrote and a picture of the first sunrise of us. Hopefully he'll be out of bed soon. Here's our Valentine!

Hangxiety no more

This might be the last time I have a hangover. They are terrible and I hate them and myself when I have one. I had too much wine after a few too many beers. I don't remember all of last night except for having some fun but after the fun it's all a blur. That's why I think I just shouldn't drink anymore. It's depressing I can't be like every other normal person and have some drinks and get a buzz and then go to bed and remember the whole night when I wake. I can't say that. I wake and I feel like I have been hit by a bus and want nothing but to stay in bed and do nothing. I can't do that. I have a sweet angel girl that needs a functional Mommy. And I need to be that person for her and for me. Hubby thinks I should stop but he doesn't think he should too. I explained to him it isn't a punishment to stop drinking if it could help support me to stop drinking.  The less I drink the less tolerance I have and that makes me dangerous when I finally let loose. It scares me that I don't remember things after. I did look it up. It's called hangxiety. I have cuts on my hand for some reason... Hubby says they were there when we got home. How? Why? Neither of us know. Yikes. I have to say I want to be done. One or two has to be it or none at all. Wish me luck please. I really need it!
All my Love!